Born to struggle

A young aspiring student , wanted to achieve big in life.
She is lucky enough and blessed to have a wonderful family, good friends .
She had aspiration ,enthusiasm , but no direction on how to achieve it.
She worked hard, graduated.She dreamt to land in a good job, but fate and choices and decisions were tough on her.
She still believed in herself and god and progressed slowly.
Yeah...Sloooooooooooooowly.... some of the decisions turn out to be very expensive.
The struggle goes on and on and on.
Settlement never seem to really happen.
The enthusiam and aspiration died down somewhere.
Work has been worship at one point of time for her.
Now, work wise,the very thought of a new interview scares her. She gets so nervous.
Something always bothers her , feels so hurt ,insecure and inferior and unlucky.Lost interest in anything. She now hates to struggle so much and questions God on why he never gives her anything that she wanted dearly. Isn't he being so tough ? Does god love to see her shedding tears? Does he think she should earn and deserve everything she wishes .Does he expect her to have a lot of patience. How much ever she motivates herself, an added pressure is what takes a toll on her..she has been that ultra sensitive girl trying to be tough ..but she is tired now and can't handle anymore.
Damn...This is giving up for no reason. Can't afford to be a loser !!!

Motivation

Gathering some motivational quotes, to motivate myself.

• Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude.
• It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.
• This above all: to your own self , be true.
• No one can make you feel inferior, without your permission.
• The surest way not to fail is to determine to succeed.
• Most misfortunes are the result of misused time.
• A quitter never wins and a winner never quits.
• Trust yourself, then you will know how to live.
  

Time

World is so busy..people are so busy...
Everybody is so busy in their own lives...their ambitions, their goals, their families..
I just don't know what I am doing but days and months and years are just passing by...
making me old day by day..
I wish somehow the time goes back...goes back to a time where I really can do things ,just the way I wanted. Boss of my own time , where I can take it backward too...

Hmm..not possible?

Then God, let me see what is in the future atleast?

Phew..finally !

A big sigh of relief !

Something pending for years now, has been accomplished.

Well..yeah I should say it is "accomplishment" for me. Because this had been pending for quite some time...err..very long time !!!

Handling pressure

Looks like I am not able to handle pressure these days.
Messing up things big time.
I get pressurized with the simplest of the things too.
Do I have any chronic anxiety disorder kind of a thing?
Not sure.
I feel very disturbed, annoyed and pressurized.
What could be the root cause of this?
Fear of failure that I put so much stress on myself?