I wanna...

"Give me another chance
I wanna grow up once again "

How many times in life did we think of this, that given a chance, we would want to grow up again. I don't know if I want to grow up again all over but I would want to go back to a specific time in life and, given a chance make it more lovely and beautiful and live happily ever.

Sometimes I wonder, if certain things are going exactly how you wished and prayed, if anyone casts an evil eye and everything goes in way leaving the heart deeply wounded.

I don't know if one should be sad on something that hasn't happened, feel unfortunate or what? Certain things and days leave both happiness and pain behind.
How could god plan such an event and a game with us, humans that some days leave the fondest memories and fulfillment but yet they cause immense pain. Pain is what probably the humans create for themselves?

Life makes me think many things for which I don't have proper answers - what is it that we are born for? Yearn for? Is it bad to follow your heart? Go by the instincts?
I thought I had been following my heart and that is the best thing to do when I am so clear in my mind. I thought as long as I don't mean any harm to anyone, I am leading a good life and god would give me everything that I wish for? Am I right?
Is there really called Karma - to attribute when certain things don't really happen?
Does god give everyone what they need and what they deserve?
What is the motto of life? Why is love important in life? Why does God put the human beings through these emotions, attachments, love , heart breaks, pain and suffering ? What is loving with pure heart? Why does it feel that talking to some make us feel that you are my someone?Why can't everyone have happy lives? Why is love so powerful, painful, wonderful yet devastating to some?